About ME:
Name: Terence
Age: 20
DOB: 11th of June
Loves: God, family, friends, her
Dislikes: 'No one' because Jesus said 'Love your enemies'
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WISHLIST:
Closer to God
Love my parents and family
Love my girl-friend and grow spiritually together
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm feeling super down today. The feeling of missing her just pops up at some unusual moments. I tot i was quite over it and just waiting upon the Lord for guidance but there it comes again. Like the waves of the sea, hitting me again.. again.. and again.. I wonder, is it just me that i really fallen in love with her? Or that The evil one is tempting me and bringing me these thoughts? Or that God is telling me that she's the one? I really don't know. I just want to stick to God's will for now and see how he leads. But sometimes, the flesh is weak and it really makes me feel depressed, thinking about the past, what we did together, what we talked about together.. I always told myself. Come on, she's already let go. Why can't you? For me, i need a longer time than the others to do that. This is not a new fact though because for all the past relationships its all been this way. But God said to me that even if i'm happy, angry or even down and depressed. I can always go to Him and tell him how i'm feeling. He always understands and comforts me in the most amazing way. Like His love just fills the heart to the brim even overpowers the angry feelings to have calm me and giving me peace.
So Lord, i'm coming to you once again.. kneeling before you cos i know my weakness in my flesh. Lord that you can let the Holy Spirit overpower this weak flesh to gain control of my body to do your wonders. O Lord, i can't do this on my own. But with your strength everything and anything IS possible. Lord, let your will be done rather than mine teaching me to want your will rather than mine. But Lord, i always had this little hope of mine that i hope all these would change. Lord, this is the little hope i'm living on and pushing on in life for but help me not to rely on this hope but to rely on you. For you are the only person that has been always true to me, when i'm down or happy we were there with me. Lord, i feel bad today.. but i know its just the bitter pill that you're giving me to help me mold. And I thank you for it.
Lord, i also want to put her into your hands that you will continue to guide her and mold her too Lord. For down the road, all this molding would help her mature mentally, physically and spiritually. Lord, I pray for her happiness in everything and in You that she may find peace and comfort. Help her also to want your will Lord rather than Hers and that you always give the best in your time. Lord, shower her with your blessings abundantly so that she will feel your love always. I commit all these prayers into your hands Lord. In Jesus most precious name.
Amen.
*till now, you're still the best to me.. and that would never change
I would walk
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