I would walk 500 miles

Sunday, May 13, 2007

This week has been quite a wonderful week for me. Met up with people who are important to me and been out with friends, the bad thing is that i was sick and till now haven't recovered.

A lot has been going through my mind, i wonder is God testing my patience or is it not His Will? I do wonder sometimes is God playing around with me? Its been 1 year, 11 months and 25 days since i've known her. From day 1 when i got to know her, i didn't feel that she was the right one but just as gradually knowing her better and all, it just hits me that she might be the right one. But of cos i would want God's plan to have her in it. Been praying countlessly and continously to ask God about this. I can see that God is really building and molding me through this process and can say i've matured quite a lot looking back. Guess the timing is not right yet.. But i feel that we've really been through quite a lot and got to know each other a substantial amount, still getting to know each other more.

Use to ask God for a chance to be together but I saw that it wasn't what God wants because i wasn't ready to maintain a r/s and moreover i couldn't even take care of myself, how could i take care of an extra person. Like she told me yesterday about how i couldn't take care of myself, it shook me and made me realise that a simple task which i cannot fulfil on myself. From now on, i will take care of myself and I really want to thank her for accompanying me to the doctor, open the hot porridge for me and remind me to take my medication and accompanying me for dinner in the night though she was busy. I wish so badly that my partner would be her, it just so inevitable to think that way but i promised to be just a very good friend. Just a bit sadden about some things but i'm still happy that God has put her in my life even though nothing turns out, we can still be friends. I just pray that God would just give her all the happiness and really bless her. Even if I would not be the right one for her, I would pray that the one for her would really take care of her and that i'll be happy. Lord, i just wait upon you.

A special day today too. Mother's day! Wishing all mother's a very Happy Mother's day! =) I'm giving my mum the best present of the century and guess what, just be a obedient son and keep her in my prayers everyday.

I leave all these into your hands Lord, please continue to guide me and renew my faith in you..

Amen.

*waiting upon the Lord

I would walk
500 miles;3:50 PM

...

LINKS

Pauline[sis]
Pei Wen
Cheryl Gan
Leonard
Audrey
Genevieve
Edmund Wong
Siew Ching
Esther
Yee Ping
Midori
Shawn
Lim Han

CREDITS

Thank God for guiding me these 20 years and will continue to walk beside Him though it may be pain through the times of molding but i know he is always there to hold me up.

Thank my family for the support and encouragement they have given me, chances for me to change and believing in me that i would one day change.

Thank her for bringing a special meaning to my life and will always enjoy the time with her, her presence has brought me closer to God and i am thankful for her.